I’m sitting here in an organic smoothie bar, Santa Monica, baggy ripped jeans, next to a dear friend of mine, sipping a green juice, after a deep yoga flow, and I begin to cry.
My heart ripples out, and shakes in gratitude but also in remembrance and grieving of where I came.
I want to tell you my why.
Why I am here, doing what I am doing, with this business, this mission, and this inspiration for the world.
I start to cry because I tap into my heart space (do that with me now) and honestly my lifes work and my mission moves me. It courses through me. Its a part of me, its my assignment, and at this point, I cannot move around it. Only through.
My mission is to help sensitive souls awaken into embodied confidence for who they are in the world.
My mission is to remind women that they have everything they need, and that they can become their own healer and manifest optimal health, fulfillment, and love.
This is my lifes work because its what my journey challenged me through, up to this point.
When my health tumbled into a bucket of non-existent luck, I drew away from the world. I hid. I let my “dis-ease” run my life.
I grew acne across my forehead as the doubt in Self doubled over. And this continued for years.
I was seeking the healing, not knowing I had the power within me.
I was disengaging my worth out of service-based-living, not knowing that this is where health is drawn in the first place.
I was listening to diagnoses from doctors and silencing my voice, treating myself like a petri dish that needed fixing.
I became so sensitive and secluded from the world.
I let my sensual soul dry up to non-existent feeling: numbing who I was day in and day out.
I told my body that she was ugly. I actually spoke those words to myself in the mirror, and I cry thinking about that time in my life- knowing how divine I feel in my skin now.
I adopted habits of binge eating and overeating, clearly covering up the magic underneath my skin and piling program and parasite on top of the next.
I was unfulfilled, and had no direction in life.
And although I wanted to use my inspiration for intentional living and holistic health in the world and offer services that heal, I was never good enough in my eyes.
Until it all changed.
Until I CHOSE for it to change.
I got myself out of the self-made puzzle and now my lifes work is helping you do the same.
And thats why my mission moves me.
Because I’ve alchemized (and I continue to stir) my pain and sensitivity into beautiful and healing transformation for the world. It’s all in here.
And I know deep down in my heart that you can have it all, too.
You can wake up knowing why you are here. Confident in yourself. Alive.
You can work each day with intention and let go of the habits that keep you small.
You can come out into the world brighter, more authentic, and more healed than you ever thought possible.
You can inspire, lead, or share your art.
You are the medicine for yourself, and through your own self-actualization, you help heal the world.
Its the deepest level of fulfillment on your path- and the love you can cultivate for you- the embodiment… that moves me to tears.
Because what you create with THAT: health, abundance, love, the relationship that serves: is what living is all about.
But it starts with you.
The most internal you.
Ritual with you.
Love with you.
Pleasure with you.
Intuitively moving you.
Saying yes to you, and your highest Self. Whatever it takes. However challenging.
It starts with you, and the commitment you have to grow and become.
I invite you, love- into all of this: right here.
We begin February 12th.
And I am so looking forward to supporting your light,